find deep fulfillment in everything you do
I recently listened to a song by Milow that is called "Against the tide" and had an interesting revelation. To swim against the tide as used in the english language means "to do something that is in opposition to the general movement of things" or "to not follow what everyone else is doing". But the way I see it now - viewing the tide as a river - there are not two but at least three different ways of doing something or living your life in general.
This concept of letting go is a really fascinating one. It is said that by letting go and not holding on to something or someone, you gain much more than you had before. This requires a certain amount of trust in something outside yourself – depending on the situation, that trust is easier or harder to accept. But as long as the whole thing stays a concept – just a theory, attaining that trust is really hard. Even if you experienced it a few times – and were positively surprised that it actually worked – that trust doesn’t come naturally. Is that something that we never had or has our current way of living and the way we and our parents and grandparents trained each new generation to see the world forced us to unlearn that trust?
Every story has a beginning somewhere. But if you want to identify it, you will rarely find an exact place or a definitive point in time. Since every life is intricately intertwined with the lives of others and with one’s own issues, there are usually no real beginnings, right? Based on this, the first entry in my blog is not a clear beginning, but rather a natural sequence of everything that has happened so far.
A next step. One of the steps that preceded this was quitting my job, completely turning my life upside down, taking a break from society, and getting off the hamster wheel. I moved back in with my parents and tried to figure out what it really is that I want to do, what inspires me. The meaning of my life. In the meantime, I stumbled back into the rat race – much sooner than I had expected.