We don’t have to be perfect

We don’t have to be perfect

We just have to feel what we feel

For the whole of last year, I felt trapped. Trapped in a cycle of regret, hope, and despair. I had clung to an idea of how both the other person and I—and our relationship—should be, and what I absolutely “needed.” And clinging to this idea of “perfect” didn’t really allow me to see or feel things as they are in their entirety.

Then, a dear friend shared a song with me that let me take a deep breath and allowed the tears to flow in a different way: “You Don’t Need to Be Perfect” by Nash Blackwood. read more

I can’t hear you

I can’t hear you

No matter what you say,
no matter what you do.
I’m trapped inside myself.
And I can’t find a way out.

I scream,
apparently to protect myself.
But from what?
I think I hear you,
but it’s just my filters.

You say, “You only hear your own echo,”
and all I hear is
what I’ve always heard.
You say, “You don’t see me.”
And again, all I hear is, “You’re not good enough.”

You see me, but I don’t want to see that.
Because then I can no longer hide
from all the uncomfortable feelings
that come
with truly seeing myself. read more