When I first experienced, simply BEING in nature, I realized, how much more it does than simply be the ecosystem for a lot of species.
We think we need the big money or fame or follower or impact to validate us. We want to get out of that uncomfortable situation of not being sure if we're actually able to make it. If we can stick around long enough to figure out what works and what doesn't. Long enough to figure out what we're really good at, where we shine (both inside and out), and how we can best be of service to others.
Since the pandemic of covid-19 hit, there has been a divide, that’s been growing. Between the “people following the rules”, so that we can put the lockdowns behind us and get on with our lives, and the “conspiracy theorists”, that are weary of mainstream information being the only and whole truth, questioning decisions, and some of them possibly even going all the way into a story, that this was all planned.
I always felt like somewhere in between, playing the objective connector, keeping perspective. Seeing myself as the “sane” one.
I have a big confession to make…
About 7 years ago I have set out my journey to radically follow my heart. And some time along that way, I got extremely sidetracked by my fear of not being a productive member of society / my clan, which in turn – in my head – is tied to earning money. I have figured out that I like helping people, so all the things I have been doing the last almost 4 years have been – on the surface – geared towards that.
In the beginning, I even “allowed” myself to have the time and space to find my connection to my inner voice. For 3 months or so, and I constantly talked about how important it is, to listen to and follow that inner voice. And it is – to me – the most important thing. But I haven’t radically truly communicated that to the universe through my actions. I did do a lot of self-discovery and unfolding of my inner voice, also after these initial 3 months, but I hadn’t noticed that I had put myself in a cage to do so.
What is your main driving force for doing something? And have you checked over time if it’s still the same?
Are you “all in” with your current project? can you feel, that you reached the point of no return? That the only way out of it is through? And you’re ready to do whatever it take? Do it, or die?
If you don’t have something like that in your life – and that can also be your personal journey of self-discovery -, you can skip this article and come back when you do. Because then, you will easily find excuses as soon as it gets a little tough, and won’t have the strength to look at your fears.
I see and value the importance of self-control, and to learn to step back and be of service. But that topic reminds me a lot about all sorts of trainings, or efforts to achieve something in general.
When we feel controlled by others or our surrounding, all we long for is freedom. Freedom to do whatever we like. Freedom to lie around all day, freedom to travel the world, freedom to create art, and anything in between. But is there such thing as too much freedom?
I have been silent. Silent for far too long. I have observed the uprisings in the US and the solidarity in so many other countries, and felt paralized.
What does strength really mean? And what about vulnerability? And how can we be strong in hard times, and at the same time feel our emotions and let them be present?